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Who I Want To Be
Nov. 20th, 2019 08:10 pmDo you ever look at your life and wonder how you got so lucky? I have an amazing family. I have a great group of friends. I have what's basically the perfect job. I have my own house. That's pretty much what most people aim for, it's what people's goals in life are. And I have them! :) It makes me feel amazing, I'm not going to lie!
There's still more that I would like - but then isn't there always?
I miss the beach :( I grew up pretty much on one, most of my earliest memories are time spent on the sand with my family. I want to live on the coast. I'm a half hour train journey from a beach right now and I go as often as I can. I try to go back to Wales once a month as well. I can't wait to go home for Christmas
I want dogs. I grew up with quite a few and my current lifestyle isn't conducive to one. I leave the house before 7:30am to commute to work, and get home after 6:30pm. It wouldn't be fair on a dog to be alone that long.
Marriage and children are definitely things I want in life. I've had a couple of relationships but I've not yet met anyone who I want to settle down with, to spend my life with or to have children with. I'm not even 30 though, so I've got plenty of time.
I've also thought about going back to school, studying for a Masters and maybe even more. There's a couple of programmes out there I keep eyeing, but I don't know how feasible it would be with my job and my house. I'm sure if I was to look into it properly there would be solutions.
I sometimes wonder if I'm not being true to myself, to my upbringing, to my beliefs by having student debt and by having a mortgage and everything that goes with it. I've had conversations with my parents and my older sister and they all tell me that as long as I'm living intentionally, that my heart and my actions are true and I'm not doing anything that gives me bad karma, then I'm not doing anything wrong. And that makes me feel SO much better
There's still more that I would like - but then isn't there always?
I miss the beach :( I grew up pretty much on one, most of my earliest memories are time spent on the sand with my family. I want to live on the coast. I'm a half hour train journey from a beach right now and I go as often as I can. I try to go back to Wales once a month as well. I can't wait to go home for Christmas
I want dogs. I grew up with quite a few and my current lifestyle isn't conducive to one. I leave the house before 7:30am to commute to work, and get home after 6:30pm. It wouldn't be fair on a dog to be alone that long.
Marriage and children are definitely things I want in life. I've had a couple of relationships but I've not yet met anyone who I want to settle down with, to spend my life with or to have children with. I'm not even 30 though, so I've got plenty of time.
I've also thought about going back to school, studying for a Masters and maybe even more. There's a couple of programmes out there I keep eyeing, but I don't know how feasible it would be with my job and my house. I'm sure if I was to look into it properly there would be solutions.
I sometimes wonder if I'm not being true to myself, to my upbringing, to my beliefs by having student debt and by having a mortgage and everything that goes with it. I've had conversations with my parents and my older sister and they all tell me that as long as I'm living intentionally, that my heart and my actions are true and I'm not doing anything that gives me bad karma, then I'm not doing anything wrong. And that makes me feel SO much better
