Do you ever look at your life and wonder how you got so lucky? I have an amazing family. I have a great group of friends. I have what's basically the perfect job. I have my own house. That's pretty much what most people aim for, it's what people's goals in life are. And I have them! :) It makes me feel amazing, I'm not going to lie!

There's still more that I would like - but then isn't there always?

I miss the beach :( I grew up pretty much on one, most of my earliest memories are time spent on the sand with my family. I want to live on the coast. I'm a half hour train journey from a beach right now and I go as often as I can. I try to go back to Wales once a month as well. I can't wait to go home for Christmas

I want dogs. I grew up with quite a few and my current lifestyle isn't conducive to one. I leave the house before 7:30am to commute to work, and get home after 6:30pm. It wouldn't be fair on a dog to be alone that long.

Marriage and children are definitely things I want in life. I've had a couple of relationships but I've not yet met anyone who I want to settle down with, to spend my life with or to have children with. I'm not even 30 though, so I've got plenty of time.

I've also thought about going back to school, studying for a Masters and maybe even more. There's a couple of programmes out there I keep eyeing, but I don't know how feasible it would be with my job and my house. I'm sure if I was to look into it properly there would be solutions.

I sometimes wonder if I'm not being true to myself, to my upbringing, to my beliefs by having student debt and by having a mortgage and everything that goes with it. I've had conversations with my parents and my older sister and they all tell me that as long as I'm living intentionally, that my heart and my actions are true and I'm not doing anything that gives me bad karma, then I'm not doing anything wrong. And that makes me feel SO much better

Hey, I'm Ocean and this is my first post. I'm feeling quite anxious about writing this... Who am I? What am I like? I’m sure you’re wondering these things, and wondering whether or not you’re interested in a blog by someone like me. Okay I’m starting to sweat, why does this feel like a job application!? Or a super hard test & if I get one question wrong you’re out of here and I’ve failed the test.

First question I always get asked: is Ocean really your name. Yes. Ocean Enyfs [last name] - Ocean Rainbow¹, since Enfys is Welsh for Rainbow, and yes I'm originally from Wales. My parents are hippies, my sister is called Wisdom Sinclair [last name] and brother was called Temple - but he was super cringe about the whole hippie thing and changed it as soon as he was legally old enough. He's now called Daniel.

Me, I completely embraced the hippie lifestyle and will happily call myself a flower child. I'm all about the peace and love, man. I smile way too much, and overuse emojis & exclamation marks (sorry not sorry, I’m expressive) But I'm also really needy, I thrive on affection & constantly harass my loved ones for hugs & kisses (but I'm also demisexual so keep it platonic, k?). I am striving to be the best version of myself and continuously trying to make my world a better place. ♥

I now live in South England where I work for a museum, researching the history of the collections and trying to identify what work is needed. I am a huge nerd over ancient history and civilisations and studied Classical Civilisation at university.

What can you expect to read here? Life, relationships, & random thoughts, sharing music & recipes, tons of positivity, & some geeky stuff - everything from scientific and spiritual pursuits to those of new-age ideas and ancient knowledge

One thing to make you aware of is that I don't own a TV. I pretty much know nothing about popular culture, I've never seen any of the comic book movies (and have no interest in them). I much prefer to listen to music (usually folk) and read, or dance or paint or do yoga & I keep thinking about learning to make jewellery. But! I do not judge anyone who likes to watch TV or movies, I don't belittle anyone anything that makes them happy

^{1 and that's why rainbocean is my user name, a mixture of rainbow and ocean, and I thought rainbocean just sounded cute}